The Breakup/Breakdown

So here I find myself having lost 12 lbs in the last month due to a break up and not eating due to stress. I don't recommend anybodu doing it that way.  So now at 120 lbs with little muscle left on me I went back to the gym today. Not too much because I'm still weak from not eating, but it felt great to do something again that I enjoy rather than drinking alcohol tohide from my pain.  I have become a violent and abusive drunk and I can't be that person anymore.  The love of my life has finally had enough and he's said goodbye. I never expected after 6 1/2 year's that today without him my life would be like this. We held it together for so long and were so in love.  So now I find myself wanting to journal this journey back to strength and help other's along the way if I can. My purpose is not just me anymore. Its about lifting other's as I heal myself.  I hope to have something new to share with you daily.  These are me currently, but I hope over the months I'll be able to show you progress pictures as I gain muscle back. Xoxo